Jessica starts Wednesday listing the numerous mindfucks that she’s dealing with, some are reasonable: Marcus asked her to marry him, not out of pure love of desire, but because he knew about the intended break-up, because he may have wanted to break up, too; Hope had been lying by omission by weeks. Some are unreasonable: Jessica, be Marin’s guardian. It’s not that big of a deal. But one is too much: Her dad crashed his bike and his hospitalized, and her mom doesn’t seem to care. As the day progresses, the situation seems worse — Jess’s dad crashed on purpose, trying to express in collision what he couldn’t just say. Here, we witness nice parallels between the two — Jessica had dreamt of doing the same in Sloppy Firsts, though her eventual fall was unintentional.
Jessica starts the novel trying to combat the uncertainty of dating a college freshman, soon-to-be campus legend the only way she knew how: by ending the relationship and the uncertainty. By this point in the novel, she has been thrown into the deep end of the unknown. She doesn’t know if she can trust her best friend. Her sister’s insistence that their parents’ marriage was falling apart was starting to ring true. And, in the midst of all of this, she’s trying to decide whether she needs to finally let the love of her life go or if she should tie that uncertainty up and carry it with her for the rest of her life, the way her dad assured her a married-too-young Darling would.
I’m off to be a bridesmaid in the second wedding in two weekends! And it’s in New Jersey! Since Jessica returns to her roots in this chapter (and I’ll be heading there shortly), I’m going to recommend a show that would be fit with Sloppy Firsts and Second Helpings: Awkward. It’s the best show by miles on MTV, about Jenna, a girl who, through a series of unfortunate events, is incorrectly identified as having attempted suicide, when really she just slipped in her bathroom. The show is about great love triangles, mother-daughter relationships, female friendships, and Jenna finding her voice. She writes on a blog, not in a journal, but i think she and Jessica would be friends.